Future.

Well, things did not go the way i though it would.

Yes. I had thoughts of doubts , worries and inevitably those of discouragement.

I know i could become exceptionally bitter if i just continually dwell in those negative and skeptical thoughts but more then just that.

I am going to have faith cause by experience and ear i know how Good is my God.

He is not a God who can’t wait to take on punitive measures whenever i do something wrong.

I still trust in you.

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct^[a] your paths.

11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

One day i shall see the glory of god in my life. = )

Sleepless nights.

Dreadful feeling tingling on my face.

It feels like death and decay.

Couldn’t sleep till like 5 .

The discomfort was just horribly unbearable.

I had to watch the Ellen show for 1 hour. It was so… Hollywood but it was plain funny like from 3 to 4.

Oh God , save me.

Sometimes it  feels so bad , i feel like running and maybe even hiding.

Anyway thank you for restoring my heart . Thank God , man you are so Good to me. = )

Love.

John 15:13

Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never fails.

It will surely happen.

Yes , it will surely materialize to existence . i have faith.

=).

These few days have been amazing and eye-opening.

Caught up with my dear secondary 4 buddies and of cause my beloved leaders and connect group mates for this few days . It was awesome  . I can feel things changing . I can feel God gradually empowering with security and confidence.Yet at the same time , I feel so happy now , which is something that is intriguing and fascinating . I was always a brooding , mawkish boy but I right now i can see the power of God in my life. Transformation .

Love was evident on 3rd June when my leaders decided to pay a visit to my dear friend Roderick. The Love of God materializes through the medium of man. We just couldn’t bare to see that poor chap reading notes during his yearly birthday.

God is Good. Amen.

Success to Significance

What Pastor Lia preached today was really true and really spoke to my heart.

Have we been fenced up by the legitimate standards of these world ?

Is the desire to be kept as a remembrance found in the area of success.

Some people live their lives just for success.

Living from one success to another.

Wont they ever feel frustrated and lonely. A momentary success might make them fill euphoric for a couple of days but after that the race to achieve to outdo your previous success resumes.

There must be something more.Our heart desires for eternity. The longing to be indelibly etched in the minds of every person. The question that prompts our heart perpetually , if one day i would leave these earthly land would any still remember my existence.

On another note , what are you living for?

Is life just all about the relentless pursuit for material wealth ?

Did somewhere along the way maybe your parents , peers or maybe the media gave you the mundane impression that authentic happiness is marked by success in career or maybe material wealth.

Do we live for something more then that? Is there something more then what we see or hear around us , that the world perpetually bombards in our frail and easily impressionable minds.

Is the prevalence of such thoughts or mantra mutable? We can live for a far greater purpose then this.

We are meant to live for so much more then material wealth , success and fame.

We are borne to love. Loving others. The humane desire to give rather then take. Something that is against our selfish and egocentric nature and instinct. Something that is unconditional and sacrificial , love. We are born to love. We are meant to live for something far greater.

Mistakes.

I have made so much mistakes in my life.

No taking care of myself and not being responsible.

All these are seriously adversing affecting and impacting my life right now.

How am i going to face the giants that awake me in the distant future.

All those inhibitions , worries and fears . They really trouble me.

God, save my soul please. Redeem what i have lost. I want to change.

Indeed.

Psalm 56:3 Whenever I am afraid,  I will trust in You.

Secured.

Today was the first day of Red Rain . It was awesome. Although the drums beats and the guitar riffs were so darn loud that i felt extremely nauseous and felt as if my own existence was phased out man . I felt quite uncomfortable. Oh man, the blasts from the stage man. That really shows sound system at my church is really superb.

Anyway , I like to talk about what ivan and joanne mentioned in their testimonial. So many people in this world seek acceptance and love , i am not joking. Everyone craves and desires to be loved . Sometimes in their perpetual pursuit for love , they found in wrong places .

They are never secured in themselves and always let what other people’s opinion affect them . Seriously , my heart goes out for them and i empathise how they are feeling. I once was plunged into a state where i was severely insecured , i was unusually mawkish till i was the a mockery in school . People jeered and derided me for my maudlinism till the point i plunged even deeper into the chasms of depression and dejection.

I am so glad that God has finally healed me and make me secured in myself and never doubting about myself anymore. God is so good to me. He is such an awesome God. All things work out for good, for those who love the lord.

Skillet

Listen to Skillet man.

Awesome Band.

Those that abhor rock bands like switchfoot or nickelback i believe wont like this band.

Just search Youtube for this band.

Envision.

Charleston spoke to us about envisioning about prayers today at the last section of prayer meeting. I believe that by doing so it will really help to focus on what we are praying too. Sometimes while praying it is really easy to get distracted and lose concentration thus by visualising our prayers really aids in prayers. Today’s prayer meeting was awesome , i felt as if my prayer life has broke through . never had the tenacity to pray for such long periods of time.

Lets visualise . 10  for meridian. Make it 10. Vision. Cmon on. Take the leap of faith man.

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